It's already dusk. And it's already cold. And it's not even 5 yet.
All the practicing out here in the wild, and setting up and breaking down the tent at Mark's house pays off. Even with making a bad mistake and threading one of the poles wrong, and having to go back and fix it, I set up the tent in under 5 minutes, and quickly have my gear unloaded and organized. Now, even in pitch black, as long as I can get
to the tent, I can find everything.
Gathering firewood is easy. It's everywhere. Lots of dead trees and pieces of dead trees scattered all around the campsite area. Rocks for the fire ring take more searching. But I get a good collection going and before long have a nice fire pit set up.
Mark gave some good instruction on setting up a fire in the wild. Building the fire ring. Using dry grass as kindling to get the fire started. And maybe the most important - details on puting the fire out. On the back side of the mountain, I can see what fire damage can do.
5 PM
I can't believe it! I'm blogging fireside!!!
The heat is wonderful. It is getting cold. Fast. Now that the sun has gone down everywhere around is cooling off. In under an hour, it will be night, and the temperature will drop down precipitously. Thoughts of using my fire for utility purposes enter my mind: drying clothes, cooking up some dinner. Really what I want to do is pull out my skymap, and learn about the stars. Being up here should allow me a magnificent view of them. I can't wait for them to come out.
6 PM
Trying to cook the Top Ramen has been a nightmare. The boiling pot in my mess kit has a handle that is crooked. I have nothing to set the pot on to keep it over the fire, so I have to hold the handle and keep it hovering. How irritating. Not the kind of activity I want to be involved in after the day I've had, just getting here. It's too dark now to run around looking for stones to build a makeshift stand for the pots and pans, so this seems my only option. There's a spot in the firepit where the logs are level, and seem steady, so I try resting the pot on those. Oops. It turns over and empties out. I now have a puddle instead of a fire.
One corner of the fire hasn't gone out, and with some extra logs and a bit of effort, the fire is saved, and even the wet areas get hot enough eventually and all the logs catch back up. It's wonderful. I could just sit here and soak up the heat forever.
7 PM
I'm bored senseless.
I've been tending the fire for 2 hours, now. I have given up trying to heat water over the campfire. My frying pan is burned. Nobody told me not to cook over open flame. Live and learn. I try using the can of Sterno fuel that I brought. I love it. It lights up easily, stays hot, but if you get your pots too close to the mouth of the can, the flame goes out. A couple of times, I sat there holding a frying pan over no heat. Without keeping consistant heat going, it's hard to boil water when the temperature around is below freezing.
The Sterno fuel idea isn't working, either. I no longer care that my pan is being cooked. I want hot water. And after charring my frying pan beyond salvagability, I manage to get hot water. Not boiling, but warm enough for hot chocolate. Ok. Luke-warm chocolate. But having liquid in me that isn't icey cold water is most welcome. I have neglected to bring utensils, so I stir the hot chocolate mix with the flavor packet from the Top Ramen I was never able to get fixed. Dinner ends up being dry Cheerios and a raw brick of Top Ramen that I eat like a candy bar, straight from the package. Not exactly 5 Star Gourmet.
There's a ton of humidity in the air. The sky is hazy, and I can't see the stars. I'm not really in the mood for star gazing anyways. It's too cold to look up. I want to leave my face right here in the flames.
I figure I might as well get some sleep. After the workout I have gotten just getting to the campsite, I should be plenty ready to pass out. I warm up the sleeping bag by holding it near the fire for a while, then put it back into the tent. Then, I warm up the fleece bag while it is still rolled up and stuff it inside the bigger sleeping bag. It takes me 20 minutes to get the fire completely out and by the time I get into the tent, the sleeping bags are cold. Warming them had been pointless.
I unroll the fleece bag, stuff my feet into it, and then stretch out inside the main bag. It's not too bad in here. I get the tent zipped up, and lie down to enjoy a good night's sleep in the great outdoors.
8 PM
So much for that. I'm freezing. I'm not tired. I realize it's not going to bottom out on the temperature until somewhere between 2 and 3 am. I am going to die. It's not even 8 pm yet. If I call Mark to come get me, it's not like I've dragged him out of bed in the middle of the night. I know the cellphone won't work here, but it's a fairly short walk to a point up the mountain where it will.
Surprise, Surprise! It works! 5 bars, and I didn't even have to get out of the sleeping bag! I send Mark a text message. Very simple. "Very cold". Now, I won't lose face. When he messages back, he can suggest that I should probably come home, and I can just agree with his wisdom, and I haven't wimped out. Just followed his lead.
There's no response. I start thinking about my options. Even if Mark
does call back and suggests that I go home, it's an hour and a half walk down the mountain. With steep rocky areas where a small mistake is a fatal mistake. In the dark. In the cold. That doesn't sound wise. And if he sends the search and rescue team, how stupid do I feel when they get there and give me the 'What were you thinking???' look. I decide it's best to just tough it out. Amazing the power testosterone has: the ability to guide you into deciding it's better to die than to be shamed. I think about the future. I can stay up all night on the fire. But I will probably fall asleep and land
in the fire. Or if I stay up all night, will be too exhausted to make the climb down in the morning without falling off the mountain. Things start looking bleak. I begin to panic. I send a text message to Sandy.
Sandy is like my second mom. She frets over every last thing I do. She's a great, great friend. I explain the situation. Then, I notice something very,
very, bad. The liner around the opening of the sleeping bag is damp and
cold. I feel the tent to see if water is leaking in from somewhere. Yikes! ICE! I open the tent and feel the outside walls. Totally dry. I realize what is happening. My body heat and breath are condensing. The dew on the walls of the tent is freezing and creating ice crystals, helping to chill the inside of the tent.
Panic!!! I notice I am shaking. I'm not sure if it's from the cold, or the panic, or both. My breathing becomes rapid and shallow. I'm not quite hyperventilating, but it's coming. I'm gonna pass out and freeze to death. Thinking this only makes it worse.
I share my fears with Sandy.
She panics. I have to reassure her that everything is going to be alright. The bright side of testosterone. Now that I have to comfort the woman, I am in more control of myself. I have to be calm to help her though her ordeal (
her ordeal???). I reach down into the sleeping bag to check how cold my legs are...feel for numbness. Ho! I'm warm! Check the feet...? WARMTH! I'm not even cold. All the shaking was from panic. I relax completely. Suddenly I'm exhausted. I thank Sandy for helping me through this, and say good night. It's 9:30.
10 PM
Drat. I have to piddle. BAD. I'm afraid that if I don't, I will explode in my sleep, end up all wet and it will freeze. How humiliating that would be? To be found later by hikers. Dead. Dead because I froze due to bed wetting. But I'm afraid to get out of the sleeping bag. I don't want to lose all this built up heat. I finally slip on my frozen boots and head out. The zipper on the tent is so cold it hurts to touch. Stepping out of the tent, I expected pain. But it's not as miserably cold as I thought. Now that I'm calm, it's more confortable.
Stars! STARS! It's beautiful. I'm lost in the sky, now. Staring up at a now clear sky. Look at all of them.
STARS!!!! I find Orion, the only constellation I know. Mark showed me how to find it the night before. It didn't look like this from the city. Wow. Then, I realize I am cooling. The rational mind tells me to get back into the sleeping bags before they cool down too much.
When I get back into the tent the bags were already cooling down. It only takes a moment for them to start warming again. I notice that I haven't rushed to put my gloves back on, and my hands aren't cold. They don't hurt. The heat and humidity have built up in the tent in the last couple of hours. It's nice in here. The ice on the walls has melted. Still wet, but no longer frozen. I decide to catch up on my blog notes. I write until almost 11pm. Finally, I'm really tired.
Lights out.